Somewhere Over the Rainbow

The material things in my life recently have been pretty rainbow-riffic. Sure, they make me kind of sad because they've made me think of the before-college days (wow, it sure seems weird if I refer to them like that), and how much things have really changed because time doesn't stop and people get older and things improve and change.

For one thing, I changed to the new post-editor thing, or whatever it is supposed to be called, and I was amazed at how the uploading of pictures worked. I liked it. The change with us from high school to college, for me, though, has not been as easy for me to stomach (though I am enjoying dorm life, and am quite attached to the fact that I have my own half of a room to really decorate and stick pictures wherever I wish).

Regardless, I'm in love with the things that people have brought me. The rainbow cake cupcakes were such a surprise (I really did not expect the colors to be that wonderful when I bit into it!), the rainbow test tube, uh, shooters (which will, "sadly", not be used for the purpose indicated on the box) are just so amazingly bright, and the photos just cover me in smiles and silly faces and good feelings. Smiles are the human's equivalent to nature's rainbows. Just so beautiful.

Sweetness made for a good day (though distance seems to be pulling people away).

New Voice in the Symphony

While we played (in particular, ~4 min)



in symphony rehearsal today,



kept running through my head.

I love the slow melody in Rachmaninov's Symphonic Dances Mvt. I (but maybe not so much when we're the ones playing it), but I couldn't get Kristin Chenoweth's laughter out of my head.

You Won't Be Seventeen Forever...

(Metro Station).

But for me, yesterday was the start of a that year of seventeen-ness, and for the individual who tries to remember everything, 365 days is a long time. On that note, I'd never be able keep up a blog for 365 days. What a challenge. what a responsibility.

Nice things about yesterday:
-visit from Kat, Alyssa, & Grace
-post-it noted door
-chocolate marbled cheesecake with strawberries
-presents
-naps
-orange gum
-hugs
-telephone greetings
-quiet night




I haven't taken pictures of everything yet, namely, the t-shirt from Ray, the photos from Kat, and the test tubes (which I received today O:) from Phoebe, but I'll get to it, eventually.

I bought a fish sandwich, with curly fries, from that grill place in Campus Center (thankfully just before the lunch rush), stuck a bunch of ketchup in my packets (which I promptly forgot about since I was too lazy to open them for use). I saw my friend from ANTH then, and she gave me the cheesecake (mmmm). Math wasn't too bad (though I can't remember what we learned, at the moment) and chem lab was relatively simple (though still as stressful as ever). I realized how easily I'm frightened of things, or rather, ho much I worry. I got to make micro-pipettes from normal glass pipettes, over a Bunsen burner. I screwed up the first set, and thankfully the second set turned out fine (and then I touched hot glass >_>). But that lab session made me really question and think about how it would really be if I ended up working in a lab. Then there was all of the thinking about working at a university (as instigated by Grace)... I'll think more about the future later.

In the last 24 hours I've been pretty forgetful. There were multiple times where a couple inches (between the closing door and the door frame) kept me from being locked out. I went to shower yesterday and I forgot to bring my shampoo and other shower things. I left today and I forgot my UH ID, and didn't realize it until I was already sitting in class thinking about buying lunch.

I ate lunch with Leo and his buddies, and Alyssa too, when she came around. Anthropology bought a rush of sleepiness, but it turned out okay.

Yesterday I realized that in my life I am slightly like a computer, and that I am very much a child. I'm lacking the words and the motivation right now to write a more cohesive post, so, that's all for now.

Let's go watch some R-rated movies in theater, neh? Maybe something horrific, so I can attempt to desensitize myself (or scar myself, eh?).

By the way, my score for the first chemistry exam was not over 80. This is grounds for increased studying.

Can I Relate to You The Way You Relate to Me?

Can you help me out with my chemistry? (Relient K)

Though I feel it would make more sense to go back and do over the past month in order... Eh, I'll never catch up. Time flies (and we can't, ohoho).

Waking up at 7 today wasn't early enough to thoroughly fortify my mind with chemistry, and by the time Kat came around 8, I was dripping wet (from showering, not nerves or anticipation =P) and blasting Anamanaguchi while I studied substituted cyclohexanes and strange chair conformations.

It really didn't hit me how important the test was going to be (or how "difficult") it was going to be until I realized that it was a test in that 50 minute period on four chapters. I freaked out thinking about having to draw isomers and conformations. But, I did try to get more sleep last night, did stretches in the morning so that I wouldn't be sleepy, and ate enough of a breakfast so that I would not have to worry about hunger. Though drinking a lot of the lemonade that Claire had made and left in the fridge was not such a good idea... hehe.

I spaced out a lot during Hawaiian Studies (it's DIFFICULT to stay attentive in a cold classroom with the lights lowered), and forced myself to walk super fast to chemistry after class finished. There was no seating chart, contrary to what had been expected, and with the instructions "alternating seats," I ended up in back near the top, which wasn't that bad. Though I couldn't see the periodic tables... thank goodness for Honors Chem/AP Chemistry and the memorization of the first 20 elements, hehe. (:

I attempted to employ good test taking strategies (do all the easy problems first, don't let yourself get stuck on a problem for too long), but still had close to no time to check my work afterward. By then my head was swimming. Only one thing baffled me out of my mind (part of naming functional groups D:!), which was good. Though, I now doubt my answer for a part of another problem, and know that I forgot to add one word to another. It's going to kill me if those little mistakes cost me a good grade.

On a brighter note, they had chicken quesadillas at lunch! I also ate pineapple, for the first time since I started dorming, and avoided apple juice. I have bought and drank wayyyyy too many bottles of apple juice in the past week.
This one I bought last Friday expires on February 14th! I laughed so much at how battered it had become because of all the times I dropped it. I accidentally dropped my phone along with it, and though they dropped from the same height, my phone sustained much less damage. I love you phone. Over four years of devoted endurance! Who needs a touch screen or a full keyboard?! I don't, ahahaha.

Also, there was mail in my mailbox when I got back on Sunday! It's pretty fun to open that lock and then tip-toe to see if there's anything inside... I'll open the letter tomorrow.

I have put the exam out of mind and shall now proceed to worry about tomorrow's lab. Labs (the actual experimentation portion) have been so much more difficult... and time consuming! Cool, but difficult.

Pre-lab question time! A call from Katherine has filled me with smiles.
-sings Airbrushed-

Nothing Like Empty Space

Wasted thoughts, motivation misplaced.

This is how I have instinctively drifted away from posting anything on this blog other than those few introductory posts. Compared to Tumblr, there is a significantly small number of people (a person?) that would see, much less read, anything posted on this blog. Perhaps that is fault on my behalf, in that I did not give out the URL to anyone, and perhaps that leads to the conclusion that I should do that. But as of the moment, I haven't, and probably will not until there is a substantial amount of reading material on this blog as to make it less of a pointless internet entity.

Here lies the problem: I haven't the motivation to post the two to three weeks worth of college adventure records posted on Tumblr on this blog. That task would include editing those posts to be not as much of a ramble/"mass of text", "bad language"-free, and emoticon-free. My problem as an individual is that I've tried too hard to record every single detail of my life when I write about my days. That was the way it was with my Moleskine. That's why if you flip to the beginning half of the year, those precious pages are crammed with scrawled reminders of the disappearing end of my high school experience. I managed a similar recording method for the first few weeks of college, from move-in day until to about a week and a half ago. Those lengthy posts grace Tumblr when they should have (and could have) been here.

Instead, I neglected this blue ramble-space in favor of the simplicity of writing without caring what is said or how it is said. I must reverse that, and get back into the groove of recording the college adventures. After all, this past week or so has been enjoyable, with trips to the zoo, eating with people (Grace, Elaine, Megan, Annie, RAPSters), my creation of a Facebook, and the DLing of ooVoo onto this laptop. Tumblr has remained my favorite computer distraction, though, paired with invisible conversations through AIM.

Blog, I'm sorry. I'll give you the attention you deserve, soon. I must cause four chapters of organic chemistry to crumble beneath the power of my understanding. Pentagons and hexagons... I'm sure I'll be able to draw you pesky shapes more neatly by the time I'm done with this finish-what-has-been-avoided session.

Echo / We are all connected / The lighthouse, a voyage / For history's sake, will you please take notice? (The Hush Sound)

I'm Addicted to Words and They're Useless

In this department. (Motion City Soundtrack)

Well, I could do without awkwardness and I could really use more common sense, because when I pick up the phone to make a call with inquiries to the University, I trip all over my words and the thoughts that I prepare prior to picking up the phone. In simplest explanation, I'm terrible at making calls, especially so to strangers. I guess one can interpret that kind of communication like that expressed through instant messages, with words instead of things typed out, but it certainly is a form of communication of more importance as it demands more attention and immediate response.

Again, I say, I'm terrible at making calls. I trip over words, I end up forgetting what I wanted to ask, I have a hard time speaking calmly and clearly, often having to repeat myself. That, I suppose, can be attributed to nerves, and I can think nothing but "Man, I really need to get better at that."

I called the other day intending to find out about getting credit for the lab portion of AP Chemistry, which I know will involve having to go and meet with the head of the department. Who knows how (or if) I will even handle that... Me with strangers = complete wreck. I guess I just have to get over it. Thank goodness the other time I called the woman kind of made it easier on me by giving me the news that the person in charge of dealing with AP credit wouldn't be back until Thursday- that means today. That also means I should probably call back again, today. Uh-oh.

In other plans, life is feeling a little better again, and I'm slowly detaching myself to the computer. However, this morning I saw a scribbled drawing that was labeled "Internet is the new oxygen, because you can't live without it." The truth of that kind of resonates, haha. It's been good, though, 'cause some things are returning to the way they used to be, and I'm talking to the people I will probably be encountering in college. I'm actually even kind of excited about college now. Before, I just thought, "Meh", as I could really care less and kind of really just wanted things to stay the "easy" way they were in high school. Looking at the classes offered, though, and seeing how my schedule could possibly be filled, I'm looking forward to it.

I guess there's nothing as calming to me as having something planned and set out before me, having the prospect of every moment filled with class and time that can be assigned as time to do homework for that certain class. I like looking at the schedule I made up, even though I'm quite unsure about getting most of those classes... Eh, that part makes me nervous, but I'm excited. I will fight to make a schedule that is similar to the one I made up. I like how it is. Though... Now... I have to decide if I really want to take that 4-semesters-of-Calculus-in-3 pathway.

I CAN DO IT! YES I CAN!

I feel pumped thinking about it. Haha, silly me.

Until more college-relevant words find me, so long.

Hello There (Ladies and Gentlemen)

Are you ready to rock? Are you ready or not? (Cheap Trick)

This fall marks the beginning of my college adventures, and I figured it was time to create a home for the (hopefully) thorough recording of the events to come. With a love for words, music, and facial expressions, I like to go through life constantly thinking about what has passed and what could possibly come, and fill my memory with everything and anything that can possibly be remembered.

I like to tell myself that everything can be broken up to some mix of fear and love, when things seem to be too complicated. I love science (especially chemistry, not so much physics), and in result, I pull things down to basics, to the little details, and then fit them together to make the big picture. This mindset hinders me at times, of course, but eh, that's my life. I will deal with things as best as I can.

This is the beginning, and I'm shooting for the end.

Nice to meet you, Blogger. (: