I'm Addicted to Words and They're Useless

In this department. (Motion City Soundtrack)

Well, I could do without awkwardness and I could really use more common sense, because when I pick up the phone to make a call with inquiries to the University, I trip all over my words and the thoughts that I prepare prior to picking up the phone. In simplest explanation, I'm terrible at making calls, especially so to strangers. I guess one can interpret that kind of communication like that expressed through instant messages, with words instead of things typed out, but it certainly is a form of communication of more importance as it demands more attention and immediate response.

Again, I say, I'm terrible at making calls. I trip over words, I end up forgetting what I wanted to ask, I have a hard time speaking calmly and clearly, often having to repeat myself. That, I suppose, can be attributed to nerves, and I can think nothing but "Man, I really need to get better at that."

I called the other day intending to find out about getting credit for the lab portion of AP Chemistry, which I know will involve having to go and meet with the head of the department. Who knows how (or if) I will even handle that... Me with strangers = complete wreck. I guess I just have to get over it. Thank goodness the other time I called the woman kind of made it easier on me by giving me the news that the person in charge of dealing with AP credit wouldn't be back until Thursday- that means today. That also means I should probably call back again, today. Uh-oh.

In other plans, life is feeling a little better again, and I'm slowly detaching myself to the computer. However, this morning I saw a scribbled drawing that was labeled "Internet is the new oxygen, because you can't live without it." The truth of that kind of resonates, haha. It's been good, though, 'cause some things are returning to the way they used to be, and I'm talking to the people I will probably be encountering in college. I'm actually even kind of excited about college now. Before, I just thought, "Meh", as I could really care less and kind of really just wanted things to stay the "easy" way they were in high school. Looking at the classes offered, though, and seeing how my schedule could possibly be filled, I'm looking forward to it.

I guess there's nothing as calming to me as having something planned and set out before me, having the prospect of every moment filled with class and time that can be assigned as time to do homework for that certain class. I like looking at the schedule I made up, even though I'm quite unsure about getting most of those classes... Eh, that part makes me nervous, but I'm excited. I will fight to make a schedule that is similar to the one I made up. I like how it is. Though... Now... I have to decide if I really want to take that 4-semesters-of-Calculus-in-3 pathway.

I CAN DO IT! YES I CAN!

I feel pumped thinking about it. Haha, silly me.

Until more college-relevant words find me, so long.